After launching into the rewrite of my middle grade novel, I managed to log about twenty pages before I came to a screaming halt. I realized that not only was I not working on it, I was actually cleaning house to avoid working on it.
For me, that’s a bad, bad sign.
Maybe I needed a better handle on the story. I went back to the notes that I took while watching the Plot Whisperer videos. I used these notes to make something vaguely resembling an outline.
Yes, vaguely. But that part doesn’t bother me.
Next, I opened up the outline I had created before watching Plot Whisperer. I simply had to work this into my current outline as well.
This might not be avoidance-by-housework, but I dislike this kind of pre-writing almost as much as I dislike housework. Clearly, I was still avoiding writing.
Unfortunately, I think that that problem may be that I don’t like my protagonist. More accurately, I like my protagonist, but I don’t like the view of him that you get in my current first chapter. He’s just too much of a victim.
I know, I could just keep writing. And maybe that’s what I should do.
But I just don’t like this version of my character. He isn’t the happy go-lucky goof that I know readers will love as much as I do. I feel like I need to refind the kid that I adore so that I can tell his story in a way that will pull readers in.
Tomorrow I’m back to the beginning for a new chapter 1 — I have some really good ideas — and then we shall see what we shall see.