Happy Thanksgiving to all who celebrate!
What am I thankful for? That I reprioritized some of my goals and can actually enjoy Thanksgiving.
As you know, I’ve been doing NaNoWriMo while working on several writing jobs and doing the usual cooking, childcare, etc. Last Monday the stress slapped me to the floor. I totally melted down. It was not pretty.
As I wrote to one of my writing buddies about it, I realized that the only thing to do was back off on NaNoWriMo and several other non-paying goals. I am a very goal oriented person. Thus, I put a lot of pressure on myself to get things done. This is good in that I finish things. This is also bad in that I can really put myself under a lot of stress.
What I realized is something that I suspected even in October. For me, NaNoWriMo is bad. Not questionable. Not suspect. Just plain old bad. I do not need a whole group of people watching my word total to see if I make a goal or if I am letting down my state and city.
So, am I failure because I’m not finishing my NaNoWriMo manuscript over the holiday weekend?
No.
I am a success. Why? Because I realized that for me, this was a destructive goal. I can only write so much in one day and still be sane. If I didn’t have paying deadlines this month, I might be able to pull it off. But I do, so I can’t.
This month I will have written almost 10,000 words toward a new chapter book manuscript. I will also have written 1 round up review, 3 biographies, an article and an essay. Failure? I don’t think so.
So Happy Thanksgiving! Please give yourself the time to enjoy it!
–SueBE